Through the past few years I have learned a lot about myself and a lot about Lupus & especially what Lupus has done to my body. During this time, I have learned I have choices.
I had choices BL (before Lupus) but the choices BL were different. My choices BL were limitless. It's kind of like "having your cake and eating it too". BL (before Lupus) or before your diagnosis you feel as if you can do anything and you don't think of the choices you're making as consequential choices that may have ramifications. For instance, going on a roller coaster. You don't think about how sore your neck or back will be after the ride or if you'll even be able to get out of the seat. The choice to ride on a fast and furious roller coaster before diagnosis would be thrilling! After diagnosis the choice would be one that wouldn't cross my mind to doing because I know how bad I'd feel.
The choices we make AL (after Lupus) are more cautious yet we're more aware of our choices. We choose to be cautious because we do know our limits and don't want to use up all of our spoons.
As we progress with our disease we become wiser with our choices. But, it's just that. We all have choices. We need to make the best of this cruel mysterious disease because it'll be with us until there's a cure.
Since we can and do have choices, why not make the best out of it? Why wait until special occasions to wear those good clothes or those great shoes that you love? You know those moms that look fabulous at drop-off at school? Be one of those moms! You can make that choice to be one too. Those clothes aren't going anywhere without you, so put them on and feel good again! So what if it takes you 2 hours to get ready and feel good? That's your choice to FEEL GOOD! And, you deserve to feel and look good!
I'm sure you have a friend that you haven't seen or talked with in a while. Give her/him a call and meet up for lunch or coffee. It's your choice to get out and have a social life.
We all have choices in life. This is still our life with Lupus! What are your choices?
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